Carlye
September 15th 04, 07:53 PM
Well, I'm at 38 weeks and 4 days now. Although I am posting less and
less, I am avidly reading MKP -constantly- (probably much to the
dismay of my boss and professors). Always appreciating the random
rant or sentiment I can relate to, as well as the little snippits of
information I would never come across otherwise (e.g., I bought a
bottle of EPO the very day the first message went up about it).
It's amazing how -little- seems to be going on with my body these
days. I still don't know if the baby has "dropped," as I measured
dead on 38 at the last appointment and people still comment that I'm
carrying "high." In the last week or so, my digestive system has been
unpleasantly in overdrive (sound familiar, Mary S.?) and I've lost a
few pounds, both of which I know -can- be a sign of impending labor,
but it's gone no farther. BH contractions are increasing every day,
but so is my fatigue and nausea. No nesting -- just resting!! I am
beginning to think this baby will stay put until an induction at 42
weeks. I guess it would be consistent with my mother -- she went 17
days past her due date with my older brother before finally being
induced.
Every day I look at the date on the calendar and decide some great
reason why today should be the day -- a significance of the date,
particularly nice weather, a message in a fortune cookie, etc. And
yet I'm scared and worried and sad almost as much as I'm excited. I
am the first to produce a grandchild/niece/nephew in my family, and
yet my brother and sister informed me, respectively, this week that
they were not only too busy to come visit in the fall as planned but
that they probably won't be around at Christmas, either (and yes, I am
the one that still lives closest to "home"). My in-laws, on the other
hand, are already pouncing on me to commit to events and trips and
holidays since DH and I are now "magically" worth having around.
I don't know -- it's weird... This isn't what I thought I'd feel like
or what I thought it'd be like. I think I'm really just down over my
sibs' apathy over their niece and it's spilling over into everything
else, but I'm feeling it nonetheless. I know once the baby is born
and in my arms, none of it will matter to me, but I feel like that day
will never come. Oh well. Anyway, thanks for reading.
-Carlye
Baby girl "Afton" due 9-25-04
less, I am avidly reading MKP -constantly- (probably much to the
dismay of my boss and professors). Always appreciating the random
rant or sentiment I can relate to, as well as the little snippits of
information I would never come across otherwise (e.g., I bought a
bottle of EPO the very day the first message went up about it).
It's amazing how -little- seems to be going on with my body these
days. I still don't know if the baby has "dropped," as I measured
dead on 38 at the last appointment and people still comment that I'm
carrying "high." In the last week or so, my digestive system has been
unpleasantly in overdrive (sound familiar, Mary S.?) and I've lost a
few pounds, both of which I know -can- be a sign of impending labor,
but it's gone no farther. BH contractions are increasing every day,
but so is my fatigue and nausea. No nesting -- just resting!! I am
beginning to think this baby will stay put until an induction at 42
weeks. I guess it would be consistent with my mother -- she went 17
days past her due date with my older brother before finally being
induced.
Every day I look at the date on the calendar and decide some great
reason why today should be the day -- a significance of the date,
particularly nice weather, a message in a fortune cookie, etc. And
yet I'm scared and worried and sad almost as much as I'm excited. I
am the first to produce a grandchild/niece/nephew in my family, and
yet my brother and sister informed me, respectively, this week that
they were not only too busy to come visit in the fall as planned but
that they probably won't be around at Christmas, either (and yes, I am
the one that still lives closest to "home"). My in-laws, on the other
hand, are already pouncing on me to commit to events and trips and
holidays since DH and I are now "magically" worth having around.
I don't know -- it's weird... This isn't what I thought I'd feel like
or what I thought it'd be like. I think I'm really just down over my
sibs' apathy over their niece and it's spilling over into everything
else, but I'm feeling it nonetheless. I know once the baby is born
and in my arms, none of it will matter to me, but I feel like that day
will never come. Oh well. Anyway, thanks for reading.
-Carlye
Baby girl "Afton" due 9-25-04