living without a baby...rant, long

[Shannon]

I have a history of drug use. I should say I had a history. It was over 5
years ago, the last time I used drugs was March 9th 1998. Here I sit with a
drug test that is positive for cocaine. A test I volunteered to do. It was a
hair strand test going back 6 months. I did the test for Family and Children
Services. When my baby is born they are taking him away from me. Although I
did not do drugs, I did nothing wrong. In fact for the first time in my life
I did everything right. I quit smoking(almost 6 months ago), I didn't drink
except half a glass of wine mixed with pop on mine and my husbands
anniversary(and my doc said it was ok), I did NOT do drugs, I have been to
all of my doctor appointments, I have a public health nurse visit me in my
home, I have a home visitor from public health(basically an experienced mom
who works for public health) I have prenatal classes I go to every week, I
offered the test(they didn't ask I just offered) and it came back positive.

Could anyone possibly be so stupid to do this sort of test after doing drugs
and think they wont know?!!! Certainly not me. My husband also did a test
that came back positive and he doesn't do drugs either. He hasn't done drugs
for around 6-7 years.

So here we are screwed and going to be without our Baby Bear. Everyone says
get a lawyer, yeah would be nice if we had the money. Oh there is such thing
as legal aid if you have no income or are on government assistance. Other
then that they say you make too much money. So we make too much money for
legal aid and yet we cant afford a lawyer. The only place that could help us
out here is called Hannah House(for pregnant women to live and be in a way
supervised up to baby being 6 months)says they cant help because I am over
the age of 21. My husband and I had our own tests done hoping that when the
results come in they will show the other test is wrong, yet the results wont
be in for 2-4 weeks. My son is due to be born this Friday. I guess there are
some meds that can cause a positive result for certain drugs yet no one can
give us something to prove it. There is no document for us to show them. The
only thing I have had before the test was I had freezing at the dentist. I
thought maybe it is possible that the tobacco we use to get from the reserve
had cocaine in it. My level of cocaine was very low. I haven't smoked in
almost 6 months, although my husband does smoke in our home so I do breathe
it in(sometimes I think it is good because it helps me not to crave, so I
don't smoke, which has been hard not to the past 2 days). So we now have to
try to find a way to get the tobacco tested. I am terrified to have my baby
go into a foster home. My husband was abused in every way imaginable when he
was in foster homes.

How do I come home with no baby in my arms, how do I sleep at night with no
baby in the crib, how do I live with no baby here to love and care for? How
do I sit here with a newly painted and furnished nursery that is empty? How
do I hold it together? I need to stay strong for this baby so I will be able
to get him back with me after they take him. But how do I stay strong and
live a life that is nothing but pain and emptiness without him? This baby is
my life. All I have ever wanted to be was a good mom. When people are little
they dream of being cops, firefighters, nurses and ballerinas... I dreamt of
being a mom. The pain is so overwhelming that I find it hard to breathe. It
hasn't even happened yet but I know it is inevitable.

I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I only wish I had done the drugs,
then it would be my fault, then I would deserve this, then my baby would be
in need of protection, then I could understand. I cannot understand. 5 years
of no drugs yet it was positive. Why me?!!! What did I do? I must have done
something terrible in my past life to have this much bad karma. I want to
crawl under a rock and die. Not that it matters, what others think, but they
are going to talk, and forever I will be the mom who lost her baby because
of drug use while pregnant even though it is a lie. So before you judge
someone you see in this situation, before you believe that they did wrong,
before you say oh they are bad parents(and gossip) for whatever reasons,
unless you have seen it first hand(not hearsay)remember this, remember the
mom on the group who did nothing wrong but was punished anyways. See you
don't have to believe me but then again I didn't have to tell you this. Also
I have no reason to lie to you. I don't know any of you and you cannot
affect my life in bad ways, you cannot punish me. I am telling you this
because I need to vent it and I want to share this experience for maybe it
can help someone else. Something good has to come out of this horrible
nightmare.

Shannon
due sept 12

[Jody Pellerin]

This is so sad. Hopefully the results will get back very soon and you can go
longer then Friday before your baby is born. You didn't do anything wrong
and you know it. Everything will work out, it might just take some work.
Don't give up! Get as many tests done as possible, do as much research as
possible. Trust me, life is never fair. But don't give up.
"Shannon" > wrote in message
...
I have a history of drug use. I should say I had a history. It was over 5
years ago, the last time I used drugs was March 9th 1998. Here I sit with a
drug test that is positive for cocaine. A test I volunteered to do. It was a
hair strand test going back 6 months. I did the test for Family and Children
Services. When my baby is born they are taking him away from me. Although I
did not do drugs, I did nothing wrong. In fact for the first time in my life
I did everything right. I quit smoking(almost 6 months ago), I didn't drink
except half a glass of wine mixed with pop on mine and my husbands
anniversary(and my doc said it was ok), I did NOT do drugs, I have been to
all of my doctor appointments, I have a public health nurse visit me in my
home, I have a home visitor from public health(basically an experienced mom
who works for public health) I have prenatal classes I go to every week, I
offered the test(they didn't ask I just offered) and it came back positive.

Could anyone possibly be so stupid to do this sort of test after doing drugs
and think they wont know?!!! Certainly not me. My husband also did a test
that came back positive and he doesn't do drugs either. He hasn't done drugs
for around 6-7 years.

So here we are screwed and going to be without our Baby Bear. Everyone says
get a lawyer, yeah would be nice if we had the money. Oh there is such thing
as legal aid if you have no income or are on government assistance. Other
then that they say you make too much money. So we make too much money for
legal aid and yet we cant afford a lawyer. The only place that could help us
out here is called Hannah House(for pregnant women to live and be in a way
supervised up to baby being 6 months)says they cant help because I am over
the age of 21. My husband and I had our own tests done hoping that when the
results come in they will show the other test is wrong, yet the results wont
be in for 2-4 weeks. My son is due to be born this Friday. I guess there are
some meds that can cause a positive result for certain drugs yet no one can
give us something to prove it. There is no document for us to show them. The
only thing I have had before the test was I had freezing at the dentist. I
thought maybe it is possible that the tobacco we use to get from the reserve
had cocaine in it. My level of cocaine was very low. I haven't smoked in
almost 6 months, although my husband does smoke in our home so I do breathe
it in(sometimes I think it is good because it helps me not to crave, so I
don't smoke, which has been hard not to the past 2 days). So we now have to
try to find a way to get the tobacco tested. I am terrified to have my baby
go into a foster home. My husband was abused in every way imaginable when he
was in foster homes.

How do I come home with no baby in my arms, how do I sleep at night with no
baby in the crib, how do I live with no baby here to love and care for? How
do I sit here with a newly painted and furnished nursery that is empty? How
do I hold it together? I need to stay strong for this baby so I will be able
to get him back with me after they take him. But how do I stay strong and
live a life that is nothing but pain and emptiness without him? This baby is
my life. All I have ever wanted to be was a good mom. When people are little
they dream of being cops, firefighters, nurses and ballerinas... I dreamt of
being a mom. The pain is so overwhelming that I find it hard to breathe. It
hasn't even happened yet but I know it is inevitable.

I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I only wish I had done the drugs,
then it would be my fault, then I would deserve this, then my baby would be
in need of protection, then I could understand. I cannot understand. 5 years
of no drugs yet it was positive. Why me?!!! What did I do? I must have done
something terrible in my past life to have this much bad karma. I want to
crawl under a rock and die. Not that it matters, what others think, but they
are going to talk, and forever I will be the mom who lost her baby because
of drug use while pregnant even though it is a lie. So before you judge
someone you see in this situation, before you believe that they did wrong,
before you say oh they are bad parents(and gossip) for whatever reasons,
unless you have seen it first hand(not hearsay)remember this, remember the
mom on the group who did nothing wrong but was punished anyways. See you
don't have to believe me but then again I didn't have to tell you this. Also
I have no reason to lie to you. I don't know any of you and you cannot
affect my life in bad ways, you cannot punish me. I am telling you this
because I need to vent it and I want to share this experience for maybe it
can help someone else. Something good has to come out of this horrible
nightmare.

Shannon
due sept 12




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[Lori]

Shannon
Im sorry that you are going thru this. Have you check with your dentist on
what he may have used on you. The reason I ask is because I use to work in
an ENT dr's office (ears nose and throat) about 3 years ago and we would
often numb patients with liquid cocaine. I know that the oral pathologist
(who was a dentist) that also worked in the office used the liquid cocaine
as well. Good luck.

Lori
"Jody Pellerin" > wrote in message
...
> This is so sad. Hopefully the results will get back very soon and you can
go
> longer then Friday before your baby is born. You didn't do anything wrong
> and you know it. Everything will work out, it might just take some work.
> Don't give up! Get as many tests done as possible, do as much research as
> possible. Trust me, life is never fair. But don't give up.
> "Shannon" > wrote in message
> ...
> I have a history of drug use. I should say I had a history. It was over 5
> years ago, the last time I used drugs was March 9th 1998. Here I sit with
a
> drug test that is positive for cocaine. A test I volunteered to do. It was
a
> hair strand test going back 6 months. I did the test for Family and
Children
> Services. When my baby is born they are taking him away from me. Although
I
> did not do drugs, I did nothing wrong. In fact for the first time in my
life
> I did everything right. I quit smoking(almost 6 months ago), I didn't
drink
> except half a glass of wine mixed with pop on mine and my husbands
> anniversary(and my doc said it was ok), I did NOT do drugs, I have been to
> all of my doctor appointments, I have a public health nurse visit me in my
> home, I have a home visitor from public health(basically an experienced
mom
> who works for public health) I have prenatal classes I go to every week, I
> offered the test(they didn't ask I just offered) and it came back
positive.
>
> Could anyone possibly be so stupid to do this sort of test after doing
drugs
> and think they wont know?!!! Certainly not me. My husband also did a test
> that came back positive and he doesn't do drugs either. He hasn't done
drugs
> for around 6-7 years.
>
> So here we are screwed and going to be without our Baby Bear. Everyone
says
> get a lawyer, yeah would be nice if we had the money. Oh there is such
thing
> as legal aid if you have no income or are on government assistance. Other
> then that they say you make too much money. So we make too much money for
> legal aid and yet we cant afford a lawyer. The only place that could help
us
> out here is called Hannah House(for pregnant women to live and be in a way
> supervised up to baby being 6 months)says they cant help because I am over
> the age of 21. My husband and I had our own tests done hoping that when
the
> results come in they will show the other test is wrong, yet the results
wont
> be in for 2-4 weeks. My son is due to be born this Friday. I guess there
are
> some meds that can cause a positive result for certain drugs yet no one
can
> give us something to prove it. There is no document for us to show them.
The
> only thing I have had before the test was I had freezing at the dentist. I
> thought maybe it is possible that the tobacco we use to get from the
reserve
> had cocaine in it. My level of cocaine was very low. I haven't smoked in
> almost 6 months, although my husband does smoke in our home so I do
breathe
> it in(sometimes I think it is good because it helps me not to crave, so I
> don't smoke, which has been hard not to the past 2 days). So we now have
to
> try to find a way to get the tobacco tested. I am terrified to have my
baby
> go into a foster home. My husband was abused in every way imaginable when
he
> was in foster homes.
>
> How do I come home with no baby in my arms, how do I sleep at night with
no
> baby in the crib, how do I live with no baby here to love and care for?
How
> do I sit here with a newly painted and furnished nursery that is empty?
How
> do I hold it together? I need to stay strong for this baby so I will be
able
> to get him back with me after they take him. But how do I stay strong and
> live a life that is nothing but pain and emptiness without him? This baby
is
> my life. All I have ever wanted to be was a good mom. When people are
little
> they dream of being cops, firefighters, nurses and ballerinas... I dreamt
of
> being a mom. The pain is so overwhelming that I find it hard to breathe.
It
> hasn't even happened yet but I know it is inevitable.
>
> I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I only wish I had done the drugs,
> then it would be my fault, then I would deserve this, then my baby would
be
> in need of protection, then I could understand. I cannot understand. 5
years
> of no drugs yet it was positive. Why me?!!! What did I do? I must have
done
> something terrible in my past life to have this much bad karma. I want to
> crawl under a rock and die. Not that it matters, what others think, but
they
> are going to talk, and forever I will be the mom who lost her baby because
> of drug use while pregnant even though it is a lie. So before you judge
> someone you see in this situation, before you believe that they did wrong,
> before you say oh they are bad parents(and gossip) for whatever reasons,
> unless you have seen it first hand(not hearsay)remember this, remember the
> mom on the group who did nothing wrong but was punished anyways. See you
> don't have to believe me but then again I didn't have to tell you this.
Also
> I have no reason to lie to you. I don't know any of you and you cannot
> affect my life in bad ways, you cannot punish me. I am telling you this
> because I need to vent it and I want to share this experience for maybe it
> can help someone else. Something good has to come out of this horrible
> nightmare.
>
> Shannon
> due sept 12
>
>
>
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[JoFromOz]

Shannon, I second what Lori wrote. If you have had any procedure done
recently that involved liquid anything (to stop bleeding and numb an area)
then it could very possibly be cocaine.

Check it out, and good luck. Try as hard as you can to stay positive
for/with your baby in your last few days/weeks of pregnancy. Try to enjoy
what you have now.

Jo (RM)

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[Taniwha grrrl]

Shannon wrote:


> I sit with a drug test that is positive for cocaine.

Get a second independant test...NOW


--
Andrea

If I can't be a good example, then I'll just have to be a
horrible warning.

[Stephanie and Tim]

"Shannon" > wrote in message
...
> I have a history of drug use. I should say I had a history. It was over 5
> years ago, the last time I used drugs was March 9th 1998. Here I sit with
a
> drug test that is positive for cocaine. A test I volunteered to do. It was
a
> hair strand test going back 6 months. I did the test for Family and
Children
> Services. When my baby is born they are taking him away from me. Although
I
> did not do drugs, I did nothing wrong. In fact for the first time in my
life
> I did everything right. I quit smoking(almost 6 months ago), I didn't
drink
> except half a glass of wine mixed with pop on mine and my husbands
> anniversary(and my doc said it was ok), I did NOT do drugs, I have been to
> all of my doctor appointments, I have a public health nurse visit me in my
> home, I have a home visitor from public health(basically an experienced
mom
> who works for public health) I have prenatal classes I go to every week, I
> offered the test(they didn't ask I just offered) and it came back
positive.
>
> Could anyone possibly be so stupid to do this sort of test after doing
drugs
> and think they wont know?!!! Certainly not me. My husband also did a test
> that came back positive and he doesn't do drugs either. He hasn't done
drugs
> for around 6-7 years.
>
> So here we are screwed and going to be without our Baby Bear. Everyone
says
> get a lawyer, yeah would be nice if we had the money. Oh there is such
thing
> as legal aid if you have no income or are on government assistance. Other
> then that they say you make too much money. So we make too much money for
> legal aid and yet we cant afford a lawyer.


If you live in NH or VT, email me privately for the name of people who may
be able to help you find someone who can take you case probono. Else, at
least PLEASE call your local bar association and ask them about any lawyers
who take pro-bono cases. It cannot hurt. You do not need me to tell you that
this process is a total jungle. The worst about it is that you, the
"defendant" so to speak, have no assumption of innocence or anything
because, in these legal procedings, the assumption is that they are caring
for the welfare of the child, not attempting to punish you.

> The only place that could help us
> out here is called Hannah House(for pregnant women to live and be in a way
> supervised up to baby being 6 months)says they cant help because I am over
> the age of 21. My husband and I had our own tests done hoping that when
the
> results come in they will show the other test is wrong, yet the results
wont
> be in for 2-4 weeks. My son is due to be born this Friday. I guess there
are
> some meds that can cause a positive result for certain drugs yet no one
can
> give us something to prove it. There is no document for us to show them.
The
> only thing I have had before the test was I had freezing at the dentist. I
> thought maybe it is possible that the tobacco we use to get from the
reserve
> had cocaine in it. My level of cocaine was very low. I haven't smoked in
> almost 6 months, although my husband does smoke in our home so I do
breathe
> it in(sometimes I think it is good because it helps me not to crave, so I
> don't smoke, which has been hard not to the past 2 days). So we now have
to
> try to find a way to get the tobacco tested. I am terrified to have my
baby
> go into a foster home. My husband was abused in every way imaginable when
he
> was in foster homes.
> How do I come home with no baby in my arms, how do I sleep at night with
no
> baby in the crib, how do I live with no baby here to love and care for?
How
> do I sit here with a newly painted and furnished nursery that is empty?
How
> do I hold it together? I need to stay strong for this baby so I will be
able
> to get him back with me after they take him. But how do I stay strong and
> live a life that is nothing but pain and emptiness without him? This baby
is
> my life. All I have ever wanted to be was a good mom. When people are
little
> they dream of being cops, firefighters, nurses and ballerinas... I dreamt
of
> being a mom. The pain is so overwhelming that I find it hard to breathe.
It
> hasn't even happened yet but I know it is inevitable.
>


Do you have family nearby or at all? Do you have parents? Perhaps they can
take the child to keep it out of foster care? Most judges will order in
favor of that.

> I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I only wish I had done the drugs,
> then it would be my fault, then I would deserve this, then my baby would
be
> in need of protection, then I could understand. I cannot understand. 5
years
> of no drugs yet it was positive. Why me?!!! What did I do? I must have
done
> something terrible in my past life to have this much bad karma. I want to
> crawl under a rock and die. Not that it matters, what others think, but
they
> are going to talk, and forever I will be the mom who lost her baby because
> of drug use while pregnant even though it is a lie. So before you judge
> someone you see in this situation, before you believe that they did wrong,
> before you say oh they are bad parents(and gossip) for whatever reasons,
> unless you have seen it first hand(not hearsay)remember this, remember the
> mom on the group who did nothing wrong but was punished anyways. See you
> don't have to believe me but then again I didn't have to tell you this.
Also
> I have no reason to lie to you. I don't know any of you and you cannot
> affect my life in bad ways, you cannot punish me. I am telling you this
> because I need to vent it and I want to share this experience for maybe it
> can help someone else. Something good has to come out of this horrible
> nightmare.
>


You have my prayers and I will look here for updates. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
call the bar association. You are obviously a very strong person if you can
beat cocaine. You are strong enough to beat this. You are strong and you are
smart. Do not let them do this to you. You do not have to crawl under a
rock. You have nothing to be ashamed of.

Stephanie

[Shannon]

Have you check with your dentist on
what he may have used on you.
>>
Yes as a matter of fact I went to my dentist and they gave me a cartridge of
what they used for the freezing, but I don't know if that would trigger a
positive. It is Lidocaine 2% and Epinephrine 1:100,00(Lidocaine
Hydrochloride and Epinephrine)

Shannon

[Shannon]

Get a second independent test...NOW
>>
We have, we went to the hospital on Monday night(when we got our results
that were positive) and had a urine test done which came out negative for
everything, the problem with that is urine only goes back a few days, so we
went yesterday to have a hair strand test for 6 months back but results wont
come in for 2-4 weeks, just wont be soon enough. If I have the baby before
the results come in or I can prove that I didn't do drugs then FACS will
take the baby, even if I prove immediately afterwards they will keep the
baby till courts make them return which could be months.

Shannon

[KatoKirk]

Get other tests done, maybe they got it mixed up with someone else's test.
Make sure it is yours. Then I would talk to your dentist and maybe even sue
him for giving you medication that is not safe during pregnancy. I have also
heard not to go to the dentist while pregnant, probably because of these
issues. Good luck.
Kirsten
TTC 5 years & 1 month
male factor infertility

[Nikki]

Shannon wrote:
> Have you check with your dentist on
> what he may have used on you.
>>>
> Yes as a matter of fact I went to my dentist and they gave me a
> cartridge of what they used for the freezing, but I don't know if
> that would trigger a positive. It is Lidocaine 2% and Epinephrine
> 1:100,00(Lidocaine Hydrochloride and Epinephrine)
>

If your husband also tested positive then I doudt it would be the dentist
unless he went also. I would agressively pursue the tobacco and any other
environmental factors. I don't know how much would have to be breathed in
or consumed to test positive but if is a very small amount could it be from
very close neighbors that might use (if you live in an apartment)? I have
read that some antibiotics (amoxicillin) will cause a false postive cocaine
test as well as kidney or liver infections.

Good luck

--
Nikki
Mama to Hunter (4) and Luke (2)

[Fer]

Shannon wrote:
|| I have a history of drug use. I should say I had a history. It was
|| over 5 years ago, the last time I used drugs was March 9th 1998.
|| Here I sit with a drug test that is positive for cocaine. A test I
|| volunteered to do. It was a hair strand test going back 6 months. I
|| did the test for Family and Children Services. When my baby is born
|| they are taking him away from me. Although I did not do drugs, I did
|| nothing wrong. In fact for the first time in my life I did
|| everything right. I quit smoking(almost 6 months ago), I didn't
|| drink except half a glass of wine mixed with pop on mine and my
|| husbands anniversary(and my doc said it was ok), I did NOT do drugs,
|| I have been to all of my doctor appointments, I have a public health
|| nurse visit me in my home, I have a home visitor from public
|| health(basically an experienced mom who works for public health) I
|| have prenatal classes I go to every week, I offered the test(they
|| didn't ask I just offered) and it came back positive.
||
|| Could anyone possibly be so stupid to do this sort of test after
|| doing drugs and think they wont know?!!! Certainly not me. My
|| husband also did a test that came back positive and he doesn't do
|| drugs either. He hasn't done drugs for around 6-7 years.
||
|| So here we are screwed and going to be without our Baby Bear.
|| Everyone says get a lawyer, yeah would be nice if we had the money.
|| Oh there is such thing as legal aid if you have no income or are on
|| government assistance. Other then that they say you make too much
|| money. So we make too much money for legal aid and yet we cant
|| afford a lawyer. The only place that could help us out here is
|| called Hannah House(for pregnant women to live and be in a way
|| supervised up to baby being 6 months)says they cant help because I
|| am over the age of 21. My husband and I had our own tests done
|| hoping that when the results come in they will show the other test
|| is wrong, yet the results wont be in for 2-4 weeks. My son is due to
|| be born this Friday. I guess there are some meds that can cause a
|| positive result for certain drugs yet no one can give us something
|| to prove it. There is no document for us to show them. The only
|| thing I have had before the test was I had freezing at the dentist.
|| I thought maybe it is possible that the tobacco we use to get from
|| the reserve had cocaine in it. My level of cocaine was very low. I
|| haven't smoked in almost 6 months, although my husband does smoke in
|| our home so I do breathe it in(sometimes I think it is good because
|| it helps me not to crave, so I don't smoke, which has been hard not
|| to the past 2 days). So we now have to try to find a way to get the
|| tobacco tested. I am terrified to have my baby go into a foster
|| home. My husband was abused in every way imaginable when he was in
|| foster homes.
||
|| How do I come home with no baby in my arms, how do I sleep at night
|| with no baby in the crib, how do I live with no baby here to love
|| and care for? How do I sit here with a newly painted and furnished
|| nursery that is empty? How do I hold it together? I need to stay
|| strong for this baby so I will be able to get him back with me after
|| they take him. But how do I stay strong and live a life that is
|| nothing but pain and emptiness without him? This baby is my life.
|| All I have ever wanted to be was a good mom. When people are little
|| they dream of being cops, firefighters, nurses and ballerinas... I
|| dreamt of being a mom. The pain is so overwhelming that I find it
|| hard to breathe. It hasn't even happened yet but I know it is
|| inevitable.
||
|| I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I only wish I had done the
|| drugs, then it would be my fault, then I would deserve this, then my
|| baby would be in need of protection, then I could understand. I
|| cannot understand. 5 years of no drugs yet it was positive. Why
|| me?!!! What did I do? I must have done something terrible in my past
|| life to have this much bad karma. I want to crawl under a rock and
|| die. Not that it matters, what others think, but they are going to
|| talk, and forever I will be the mom who lost her baby because of
|| drug use while pregnant even though it is a lie. So before you judge
|| someone you see in this situation, before you believe that they did
|| wrong, before you say oh they are bad parents(and gossip) for
|| whatever reasons, unless you have seen it first hand(not
|| hearsay)remember this, remember the mom on the group who did nothing
|| wrong but was punished anyways. See you don't have to believe me but
|| then again I didn't have to tell you this. Also I have no reason to
|| lie to you. I don't know any of you and you cannot affect my life in
|| bad ways, you cannot punish me. I am telling you this because I need
|| to vent it and I want to share this experience for maybe it can help
|| someone else. Something good has to come out of this horrible
|| nightmare.
||
|| Shannon
|| due sept 12


(((((((((((Shannon)))))))))))))) I second what the others have said, find
out about pro-bono work. Also have those smokes tested as well! I feel
terrible for you :(


Jenn
WAHM
DS11
DD6
TTC#3