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That's a very sad story, Jamie
Was Nathan a stillborn ?

I hope you are blessed again with the magic belly.
Take care.

Sort of. We found out at our 18 week u/s that Nathan was developing with a
giant omphalocele -- the majority of his internal organs were in a pouch
outside his abdomen. We had an amnio to see if his chromosomes were normal,
and went for a detailed echocardiogram, to see how his heart was doing. His
heart wasn't as strong as they would have liked, but his chromosomes were
normal. We continued with testing, u/s, and talking to various pediatric
surgeons, and finally made the tough choice to end the pregnancy. The more
we looked into his condition, the more small problems we found (fluid on the
heart and lungs, twisted spine, etc), until it just became clear (for us)
that he wouldn't likely survive to term. I went through labor and delivery
a week or so later, at about 23w4d, and Nathan was born still.

Since losing Nathan, I've had 5-6 chemical pregnancies, and 2 blighted
ovums, plus a donor egg IVF (one of the blighted ovums) and a failed IVF.
Apparently I've got an immunity issue that prevents me from staying
pregnant. I'm sort of done with the whole ttc thing, and have moved on to
adoption as the way to build my family. So unless I have an oops that goes
well past the heartbeat phase, the chances of me having another magic belly
moment are slim to none!

Thanks for your compassion and asking about it.

that's ok, I was worried I might upset you to talk about it, so i'm glad
you did.

After reading that, i'm sure you have the support, care and love from
this whole forum - a terrible thing to have happened. Adoption is such
a giving and all-encompassing love - I wish you luck with it, and hope
to hear of your success.

x
Lea


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Baby, I can't wait to meet you !
EDD: 10-Apr-2004