"Jill" wrote in message
m...
Sorry this is a bit OT.

My grandfather passed away on this day a year ago....I'd never have
thought
a year later I'd be pregnant. I feel sad because he died 6 months after
our
wedding, he loved my husband, and he would have been so happy to meet my
baby. It was very devastating for me and I had blocked it out of my
thinking
until someone mentioned it to me, and now I am really sad and in
tears....he
loved all his great grandkids, and loved kids in general. He always
carried
Tootise Rolls and lollipops for the kids at church (he was a retired
minister). When he passed, I asked my mom to let me into his study so I
could just sit there and feel him and remember him and he still had a bag
of
Tootsie Rolls on his desk. I can't even look at them anymore.

OMG, how do I stop crying? I can't stop....

Jill


((((JILL))))

It's normal to be sad when you are missing someone. I cried a lot during
both my pregnancies (and after) because my father passed away 8 years ago
and will never know my kids. I believe very strongly in spiritual
connections and I feel that my father is aware of my children and watches
over them. Since your grandfather was a spiritual man as well, I'm sure
he's around making sure you're ok and taking care of that lil critter you're
growing.

You'll feel better tomorrow,

Jen