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Sad..just realized what today is :(
Sorry this is a bit OT.
My grandfather passed away on this day a year ago....I'd never have thought a year later I'd be pregnant. I feel sad because he died 6 months after our wedding, he loved my husband, and he would have been so happy to meet my baby. It was very devastating for me and I had blocked it out of my thinking until someone mentioned it to me, and now I am really sad and in tears....he loved all his great grandkids, and loved kids in general. He always carried Tootise Rolls and lollipops for the kids at church (he was a retired minister). When he passed, I asked my mom to let me into his study so I could just sit there and feel him and remember him and he still had a bag of Tootsie Rolls on his desk. I can't even look at them anymore. OMG, how do I stop crying? I can't stop.... Jill |
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Sad..just realized what today is :(
"Jill" wrote in message m... Sorry this is a bit OT. My grandfather passed away on this day a year ago....I'd never have thought a year later I'd be pregnant. I feel sad because he died 6 months after our wedding, he loved my husband, and he would have been so happy to meet my baby. It was very devastating for me and I had blocked it out of my thinking until someone mentioned it to me, and now I am really sad and in tears....he loved all his great grandkids, and loved kids in general. He always carried Tootise Rolls and lollipops for the kids at church (he was a retired minister). When he passed, I asked my mom to let me into his study so I could just sit there and feel him and remember him and he still had a bag of Tootsie Rolls on his desk. I can't even look at them anymore. OMG, how do I stop crying? I can't stop.... Jill ((((JILL)))) It's normal to be sad when you are missing someone. I cried a lot during both my pregnancies (and after) because my father passed away 8 years ago and will never know my kids. I believe very strongly in spiritual connections and I feel that my father is aware of my children and watches over them. Since your grandfather was a spiritual man as well, I'm sure he's around making sure you're ok and taking care of that lil critter you're growing. You'll feel better tomorrow, Jen |
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Sad..just realized what today is :(
"New York Jen" wrote in message
et... "Jill" wrote in message m... Sorry this is a bit OT. My grandfather passed away on this day a year ago....I'd never have thought a year later I'd be pregnant. I feel sad because he died 6 months after our wedding, he loved my husband, and he would have been so happy to meet my baby. It was very devastating for me and I had blocked it out of my thinking until someone mentioned it to me, and now I am really sad and in tears....he loved all his great grandkids, and loved kids in general. He always carried Tootise Rolls and lollipops for the kids at church (he was a retired minister). When he passed, I asked my mom to let me into his study so I could just sit there and feel him and remember him and he still had a bag of Tootsie Rolls on his desk. I can't even look at them anymore. OMG, how do I stop crying? I can't stop.... Jill ((((JILL)))) It's normal to be sad when you are missing someone. I cried a lot during both my pregnancies (and after) because my father passed away 8 years ago and will never know my kids. I believe very strongly in spiritual connections and I feel that my father is aware of my children and watches over them. Since your grandfather was a spiritual man as well, I'm sure he's around making sure you're ok and taking care of that lil critter you're growing. You'll feel better tomorrow, Jen My dad passed away in Jan 2002 and one thing that makes me sad about this pregnancy is that he won't be here with the new baby. He took care of my son while I was in school and my husband was at work from the time my son was about 12 weeks old until he went to daycare at 3 1/2 years of age. They had a special relationship and my dad often told me he had never been happier because he worked a lot when my brother and I were little and he missed out on a lot. I feel some comfort in that I feel that he knows somehow in some way though. I also feel sad for my baby-to-be that he or she will miss out on that experience. I also wish my dad had lived longer so my son would remember him better but at least we have some footage of him on video. I still miss my dad so much and cry often. He died rather suddenly and I never got to tell him how much I loved him and how much he meant to me and us. In fact I gotta go get some tissues now cause I'm crying again. -- Jenn DS 06/26/98 1 tiny angel 11/03 EDD Early December 2004 -- Leader of the Cult of Worshippers of BiPolar Long-Haired Sexy Anime Guys with Swords |
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Sad..just realized what today is :(
"Jill" wrote:
OMG, how do I stop crying? I can't stop.... It's okay to cry, Jill. One thing I heard that helps me the most and it looks like you might already be doing, but don't mourn his death, celebrate his life. While your child won't get to meet your grandfather, she/he will truly meet and experience him through you and your stories. His love with pass from you to your child. My grandmother passed away January 21st of this year. I am 18 years old (on Wednesday) and the 2nd oldest grandchild, my brother at 19 is the oldest. I have 10 cousins under the age of 8. The hardest part for me was knowing that my cousins won't know and love my grandma the way I was blessed with knowing her and giving love to her and receiving her love. After spending days and days feeling guilty for having gotten that experience and having my heart ripped apart knowing that they won't have the experience, I realized that I can do something about this. It is up to me and my brother and my cousins who are old enough to remember my grandma to pass on her love, carry on her traditions, share her favorite stories, tell our best memories and live the way she would have wanted us to live. Hang in there, Jill. Cry. Laugh. Grieve. It takes time. ((((hugs)))) -Kara. |
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Sad..just realized what today is :(
Jill Dear,
You experienced a very special person who is now watching over you and his great grandkids. Try and think happy thoughts and forever cherish your grandfather's memories. Loads of HUGS Kim "Jill" wrote in message m... Sorry this is a bit OT. My grandfather passed away on this day a year ago....I'd never have thought a year later I'd be pregnant. I feel sad because he died 6 months after our wedding, he loved my husband, and he would have been so happy to meet my baby. It was very devastating for me and I had blocked it out of my thinking until someone mentioned it to me, and now I am really sad and in tears....he loved all his great grandkids, and loved kids in general. He always carried Tootise Rolls and lollipops for the kids at church (he was a retired minister). When he passed, I asked my mom to let me into his study so I could just sit there and feel him and remember him and he still had a bag of Tootsie Rolls on his desk. I can't even look at them anymore. OMG, how do I stop crying? I can't stop.... Jill |
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