I Realized something today...

I have mentioned before, that I am thrilled but I don't act like it because
it's hard to when I am feeling nauseous all the time and family stresses
etc.

But, as I was looking at the 4 little girl outfits I bought yesterday...I
realized that I AM very very very very thrilled. I'm not that worried about
the way I feel (nauseous etc). I am thrilled, but am anxious and sort of
afraid to let go and feel it. I am still afraid that something won't go
right, that something unexpected will happen with the baby's
health/development etc and that things won't be "ok" or "perfect". Is this
silly? Because I am thrilled to bits, but afraid to be, like I might jinx
it.

Those little onsies are too tiny and cute, who wouldn't be thrilled looking
at them? I actually shed a tear. I hung one up in the door frame and my cat
came in the room and humped up at it- lol. So it was just one tear.

Jill

LOL. The exact same thing happened to me. Though I don't think your cat
really "humped" it, did he? LOL.
"Jill" wrote in message
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I have mentioned before, that I am thrilled but I don't act like it
because
it's hard to when I am feeling nauseous all the time and family stresses
etc.

But, as I was looking at the 4 little girl outfits I bought yesterday...I
realized that I AM very very very very thrilled. I'm not that worried
about
the way I feel (nauseous etc). I am thrilled, but am anxious and sort of
afraid to let go and feel it. I am still afraid that something won't go
right, that something unexpected will happen with the baby's
health/development etc and that things won't be "ok" or "perfect". Is this
silly? Because I am thrilled to bits, but afraid to be, like I might jinx
it.

Those little onsies are too tiny and cute, who wouldn't be thrilled
looking
at them? I actually shed a tear. I hung one up in the door frame and my
cat
came in the room and humped up at it- lol. So it was just one tear.

Jill

Jill wrote:

But, as I was looking at the 4 little girl outfits I bought yesterday...I
realized that I AM very very very very thrilled. I'm not that worried about
the way I feel (nauseous etc). I am thrilled, but am anxious and sort of
afraid to let go and feel it. I am still afraid that something won't go
right, that something unexpected will happen with the baby's
health/development etc and that things won't be "ok" or "perfect". Is this
silly? Because I am thrilled to bits, but afraid to be, like I might jinx
it.

Awww, it's not silly at all, but very normal. You're allowed to be
anxious and thrilled both.

Mary S.
mom to the Sproutkin, 21 months