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calm before the storm?
I'm not so sure anyone is gonna be able to help much..........it gets hard
sometimes, like a dark cloud that hangs over our heads. I dared to try to be happy. I know why part of me is restless today and maybe I can see some light later... maybe tomorrow......... When my daughter got pregnant I had to do a lot of soul searching , I had to consider many thoughts that flooded my brain. S had had severe problems emotionally , I believe caused by G's death, I was not sure S could be a good mom to this baby,I looked at how her behavior had gotten "normal teenage" and how far she had come and changed since the first year that we learned to cope with a death that so changed our complete existence. I know she wants to be a good mom but wanting to be may not be enough. I am not saying she is being a bad mom but things are not looking very good at the moment. More and more I see her pushing for more time away from the baby than with. She has also started cutting again. Now what do I say when it is not me she is asking to tend to the baby. She has the boyfriend take full responsibility when he is here and he is here a lot. There are days she goes to school and he is here till the babies bedtime that she litterally does nothing ( not even pay attention to the baby). This is constant that she tends to the baby maybe 3-4 hours and if the baby sleeps time spent is even less. The weekends the baby is home or "her weekends" she has lately been calling her b/f's mom and asking her if she wants to take her and it ends up over night many times which means the entire next day the baby is gone as well. Now going to school limits her time with the baby as it is. She just got her butt suspended from school for two days for verbally abusing a teacher who she claims made a comment about "not seeing how she could be a good mother" behaving as she does. I have an appt. tues. with the principle who said he is checking into disorderly conduct charges, mind you if this happens there is a good chance my daughter will be put in juvenile detention because of her past in the legal system she just came off probation a year ago for charges of assualting a teacher ( she had an episode of rage and during restraint the teacher got hurt) and pressed charges. I made the decision to support her keeping this baby because of fear ........fear any more loss would put my daughter over the edge and my fear of loss took over. Her behavior was 99.9% changed for a year and I believed in my heart she would handle this. With our support she would be o.k. She has threatened to end her life because I grounded her to the house and yard until wed. when she goes back to school.I have to get her in for counsiling again(we were taking a break) .............guess I've made another friggen mistake. Besides rambling a little off the top to ease some of the pressure building in my head I feel no better, I am so so tired of trying to make good decisions and failing. My oldest has run into a major wall emotionally, I am sure it is the stress of school, she has pushed her graduation farther for the third time, holding down a job to support herself and she says cause she pushed her graduation her aunt is no longer obligated to pay her rent which was the agreement they made 3 years ago . I send what I can a few hundred a month if that sometimes, like this month the radiator blew that.She is saying crap like "I am worthless" "what made me think I could be somebody" and I know she is stressed and probably depressed (she was on an anti depressant med a feww years back) she is 3000 miles away from me, just a kid of 22, Oh yeah they think they are grown ups but *WE* know don't we ? I say come home and take a break, even live home and go to the art institute in Philly an hour or so commute.............no she doesn't want to leave her friends and she likes it in California.....argh nothing mommy can do to make it better and that kills me..............I wanted to move out there ya know to be closer and to be able to help her more, her dad doesn't do more than he has to.I have a 16 yr old with a baby (I know don't say it) that sounds suicidal , a 22 yr old 3000 miles away sounding suicidal and I am torn right down the middle, I just don't know anymore which direction to run and if I hide will they find me ? I would give my life for my children, but somedays........................ |
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calm before the storm?
You don't mention how old the baby is......
My best suggestion, If the baby is less than 2, put her up for adoption. Your daughter has shown that the fantasy has disappated and the reality is too much for her. If she were to go to JD (Jail) the child would be floating between caregivers the whole time. THE CHILD NEEDS Stability. you or the father or HIS MOM will wind up taking on the parenting.... If you aren't willing to do that, then the child needs to go to someone who is.... Just my 2 cents......... Christine |
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calm before the storm?
"Purchgdss" wrote in message ... You don't mention how old the baby is...... My best suggestion, If the baby is less than 2, put her up for adoption. Your daughter has shown that the fantasy has disappated and the reality is too much for her. If she were to go to JD (Jail) the child would be floating between caregivers the whole time. THE CHILD NEEDS Stability. you or the father or HIS MOM will wind up taking on the parenting.... If you aren't willing to do that, then the child needs to go to someone who is.... Just my 2 cents......... Christine It is not her or the mother's sole choice. With the father involved he would have to agree as well, or could sue for full custody, with the mother than responsible for paying CS. With the paternal grandparent(s) involved, that may be the best scenario for the child |
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calm before the storm?
Subject: calm before the storm?
From: unya (Purchgdss) Date: 4/18/2004 9:23 AM Eastern Standard Time Message-id: You don't mention how old the baby is...... Jaime is 4 months old My best suggestion, If the baby is less than 2, put her up for adoption. Why less than two? Your daughter has shown that the fantasy has disappated and the reality is too much for her. but do I want to teach her it is o.k. to do this to her own child? That she can throw away a child like a toy that she has lost interest in ? You may be right, but I am holding this kid to her choices, I never turned my back on her and she will learn to stand up to her own responsibility. Wake up baby ! this was your decision, reality has a name... Jaime-Gayle........ If she were to go to JD (Jail) the child would be floating between caregivers the whole time. THE CHILD NEEDS Stability. you or the father or HIS MOM will wind up taking on the parenting.... If you aren't willing to do that, then the child needs to go to someone who is.... I know you mean well by suggesting adoption.......I know it is there........We considered it.......it is too late now , I am hooked, I love my granddaughter and if my daughter can not do this I can and I will. I thought about this as well "what if" and talked it over with my partner...we discussed abortion, adoption ,and the end result was to take care of my daughters child should my daughter not be able to at this time. My daughter and her boyfriend were the main part of this decision, they were determined to have this baby and I certainly did not want them to run away feeling unsupported. She got pregnant for all the wrong reasons I am sure , she was replacing an emptiness , and she is struggling but there are many reasons for the struggle, I don't think she does not want the baby, I need to get her back into counsiling and have the "why" looked at.Yes I am willing to care for my granddaughter, Untill my daughter is ready or not . Just my 2 cents......... your 2 cents is appreciated, thank you Bev Christine |
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calm before the storm?
"Paul Fritz" wrote in message ... "Purchgdss" wrote in message ... You don't mention how old the baby is...... My best suggestion, If the baby is less than 2, put her up for adoption. Your daughter has shown that the fantasy has disappated and the reality is too much for her. If she were to go to JD (Jail) the child would be floating between caregivers the whole time. THE CHILD NEEDS Stability. you or the father or HIS MOM will wind up taking on the parenting.... If you aren't willing to do that, then the child needs to go to someone who is.... Just my 2 cents......... Christine It is not her or the mother's sole choice. With the father involved he would have to agree as well, or could sue for full custody, with the mother than responsible for paying CS. With the paternal grandparent(s) involved, that may be the best scenario for the child Well, lets hope that no decision that major would be made with out consulting the father. As young as he is, he seems to be taking way more responsibility then the mother. I just think if an adoption would have taken place, it would have been far easier at birth. But you are correct, it seems better for the baby to be with paternal grandparents, if they are able. T |
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calm before the storm?
My best suggestion, If the baby is less than 2, put her up for adoption.
I have to say, this sounds like the best option for the baby. This is a terrible situation for the child to grow up in. Joelle The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page - St Augustine Joelle |
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calm before the storm?
With the father involved he
would have to agree as well, or could sue for full custody, with the mother than responsible for paying CS. I have a feeling though, if the option is only HIM taking care of the baby, he may find adoption a bit more attractive. With the paternal grandparent(s) involved, that may be the best scenario for the child I thought the first problem presented was that parental grandparents were NOT interested in the baby. Joelle The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page - St Augustine Joelle |
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calm before the storm?
but do I want to teach her it is o.k. to do this to her own child? That she
can throw away a child like a toy that she has lost interest in do you realize how many people you have just insulted with that understanding of adoption. Giving the baby up for adoption is the most unselfish, responsible, loving thing your daughter and her boyfriend can do for that baby. You don't make her take care of her baby to punish her or teach her a lesson. She's a child. She's not capable of raising a child. Admitting that and letting an adult give that child a future is not a bad thing. .We considered it.......it is too late now , I am hooked, I love my granddaughter It's not too late. Stop thinking of yourself and how much you will miss the baby. Look at what a mess that baby is in. You cannot take care of that baby yourself, because your daughter, her mother and her messed up life is always going to be interfering and screwing with the child. I don't sense that you have thought about this in terms of the baby at all. All you've thought about is your daughter, teaching your daughter a lesson, supporting your daughter, yourself, your partner, what you want, what you love, how you feel. Step back from all that and think of what is best for that baby. Joelle The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page - St Augustine Joelle |
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calm before the storm?
"Joelle" wrote in message ... but do I want to teach her it is o.k. to do this to her own child? That she can throw away a child like a toy that she has lost interest in do you realize how many people you have just insulted with that understanding of adoption. Giving the baby up for adoption is the most unselfish, responsible, loving thing your daughter and her boyfriend can do for that baby. You don't make her take care of her baby to punish her or teach her a lesson. She's a child. She's not capable of raising a child. Admitting that and letting an adult give that child a future is not a bad thing. I could not agree more. |
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calm before the storm?
If she were to go to JD (Jail) the child would be floating
between caregivers the whole time. THE CHILD NEEDS Stability. you or the father or HIS MOM will wind up taking on the parenting.... If you aren't willing to do that, then the child needs to go to someone who is.... Just my 2 cents......... Christine It is not her or the mother's sole choice. With the father involved he would have to agree as well, or could sue for full custody, with the mother than responsible for paying CS. With the paternal grandparent(s) involved, that may be the best scenario for the child I'm sorry. I thought that was implied by mentioning the father or paternal grandparents. Obviously that would be more ideal, but not always feasible or would they be willing. Just my 2 cents......... Christine |
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